About a week before we decided Liliana and I would spend the summer in Indianapolis, my parents put their big house up for sale and it sold within a couple of days. I wasn't very happy about this at first for selfish reasons I will admit. I was nervous about living in a much smaller house with all of us and about where I would make my Cultured Veggies and store everything. I was sad because I have felt that my mom's house is the only stable thing Liliana knows in Indiana. Her life is already so crazy and I have been feeling bad taking that from her.
Well moving day is upon us. We are officially moving tomorrow, but started taking all our personal items and fragile belongings with us today. I have been taking Liliana over to the new house and preparing her and talking with her about it. I don't think she quite comprehends the major life change that is going to happen tomorrow though. She has been sad watching the big red couch go away on the truck to my aunt's house and she seemed confused when the big dining room table was just gone one day. She and the dogs are on edge.
But it broke my heart today. I knew it might be confusing when she saw me packing our suitcases. Every time I have done that we either go to El Salvador or to Indianapolis. Well all the way to the house she kept saying "go mami's house, go mami's house." I asked her where mami's house was and she said "in El Salvador." It was so sad. I asked her if she wanted to go home to El Salvador and she said "si, mami." The way home wasn't any easier. She saw us leave our bags at the new house, but I don't think she understood. We called papi on the way home and she told him again how she wanted to go home to El Salvador. It was hard to explain to her that we have to stay here a little while longer. She has been doing so well and I think once Eduardo gets his computer fixed and we can Skype it will be a lot easier for her.
But I'm also excited about the move as well. There are a lot of negative memories in this house for me so it feels like it will be a fresh start. There is a pool in the neighborhood and a park across the street. I think it will be good. We will find out soon...