Okay, anyone that knows me realizes that I absolutely HATE going to doctors. When I say hate, I really mean it, like with a passion!! It takes a whole lot of sickness for me to take myself or Liliana to the doctor. I've never taken Liliana in for "routine" check-ups or vaccinations
or anything like that. Hell there wasn't even a doctor present at her birth or anywhere near her for the first year of her life.
Our first visit to a doctor was when Liliana was just over a year I believe. My mom thought it would be a good idea to see a doctor and one of her clients was someone she recommended that wouldn't give me a hard time about our home birth and choosing not to vaccinate. She was very concerned about Liliana's weight at the time and basically pressured me into going. I didn't enjoy it and when they suggested stopping breastfeeding and giving her more food instead, I decided then and there I wouldn't go back.
In El Salvador we had a scare of Liliana breaking her arm so we took her to the emergency room not that long ago. Everything turned out fine, but the doctors were super weird. We were asked about vaccinations and lied and said she had them just so we wouldn't have to hear the whole lecture about it.
Yesterday when Liliana woke up throwing up again I knew it was time to go to the doctor. After 5 days, this couldn't go on any longer. I'm glad we did go because she has a really bad ear infection causing all her discomfort according to the doctor, but the doctor himself was a complete ass! I tried to go to the doctor we saw when Liliana was younger, but we couldn't go there. Last time I was in Indy we applied for Medicaid for Liliana for emergency situations like this and we got approved. I never named who I wanted as our physician so we were appointed this guy up the road.
When asked about vaccinations I lied and said we got a few in El Salvador, but she wasn't up-to-date. I know I should just be honest, but it wasn't worth the fight yesterday. Liliana was crying and screaming just being in the room. I was told we would need to come back ASAP for the vaccinations and I was just like "whatever". Then he saw Liliana teeth and asked where we got our dental work done. I told him we got it done in El Salvador because we did and he then went on to disrespect that and say how he spent time oversees and noone in the world does dental work like the US and that we MUST take Liliana to see someone in the States because the care she is getting is not adequate. Then he talked about ther weight. She has always been underweight, that's not a secret or surprise. But he was very concerned about her weight of 20.8 lbs at 26 months. He ordered us a script to go to the hospital and have some blood work done. He wants to make sure there is nothing more going on causing her to be so small.
So that's where we are at. Liliana is on day 2 of some antibiotics and we are dosing her up with lots of probiotics as well to balance it out. I have been debating about the blood test. I think that it would be a good idea for piece of mind, but the thought of sticking a needle in my baby's arm is too much to think about. She's never had a needle in her before. I know people do it all the time, but that doesn't help how I feel about it. Plus I just don't know what it is they mind find and that is comforting and scary at the same time. I think we will go ahead a do it to get everyone off our backs, but I hate that it's the main reason we are going to do it. I hate that people are pressuring us and not trusting our judgment. I will take her tomorrow and take her for ice cream or something afterward :) (More on my annoyances with other people's opinions later)
The worst part is that when I do the blood work, then that means we HAVE to go back to the doctor for the results and have to put up with that guy again. And a friend reminded me that I will have to be prepared for whatever he says. Hopefully it's all good as I trust it will be and we can get this nightmare over with.
On a positive note, Liliana is feeling MUCH better today. She even went to the park. We actually slept the WHOLE night last night with Liliana waking up at all. It was heavenly. Hopefully her good spirits continue as they usually do.